There are times when words do not adequately convey the gratitude my heart knows; how then to help others into my world is a bit of a mystery.

Recently I taught on a Sunday morning. It was within a group that loves me. They would let me teach almost anything among them, as long as it stayed within the truth of God’s word.

I was a bit apprehensive about bringing my life message- because my life still seems uncommon among the bride. While a day may come when all that remain have endured extreme hardship, torture, pain and suffering, within America there are many who do not yet walk a path that contains those.

Obedience overrode uncertainty.

And when it was one I breathe. I can listen and hear the mistakes. But this is the message I was born to bring. And I am stunned at the fulfillment that brings. I was not looking for fulfillment. I was not even looking for understanding of that particular Psalm. But God.

He knew. He has done this full circle thing again. He suffered. He made reconciliation possible. He made me. He reconciled me back to God. And within that reconciliation this truth exists and has become one within Him and me. It is our shared point. Even though he has the far heavier weight of the truth of it, us having shared this point is a place of communion an oneness between us.

It almost feels like – how can I ever bring anything more true? How can I ever grow beyond this moment? And I want to jump on top of a roof and shout- Look what God has done! With God all things are possible! With my God I can scale any wall!

And as I pause and consider, ten years ago, twenty, thirty an forty, I am undone.

Let it not be said that we know all of God’s ways. Let it not be thought that we can out predict or imagine what he will do.

I am on my face. Thanking. Humble. Realizing that no one else can fully get what this message means to me. Except for him. Because he has walked with me all the way.

You can find the message here. http://www.northshorebridge.org/sites/default/files/podcast/tanya_dwyer_-_4-12-15.mp3

Blessed is the name of our Lord. Amen.