This month the Lord has asked me to do a fair amount of examining my heart.

We have been going over people that I have worked with, and looking at what I expected to happen, and in certain areas, how I judged God because what I expected and what happened did not match.

Ouch. Whenever I judge God it messes up my alignment with divine time. But sometimes my soul stands up and thinks it has a right to decide. So I have been relinquishing some of my judgments and opinions. Some of them I had to wrestle with for a bit. I had ‘reasons’ why I thought I was right. (that seemed legitimate)

But at the end of my day, my posture is safely found in the beauty of repentance and the safety of his wing. I’m sorry, Lord- is the lovely space where my soul rests and my spirit soars again. Selah.

I was surprised to find I also had judgments about what direction people should have gone, or grown in, or pursued in the Lord after they had worked with me. It reminded me of the early days when I needed control for safety. The unplugging from me, and the righteous plugging into the Lord, along with repentance for the control, has left the structures of life flow around me in a much better place than where I was at the start of the month!

I am once again aligned in divine time. Humility has turned pride on its head, and I am so grateful that the Lord chastens whom he loves.

He loves me. He is my peace.