I had an interesting experience with a part this week.

I was working with a gal, and we have gone far in discovering her internal world and helping bring reconciliation, internally, and with the Lord.

This week we were working with a part that has a resistance to the Lord.

Sometimes, the areas of resistance yield clues. In this case it was the word ‘widow’. She has opposition to that word being used as a descriptor. Even though she lost her husband. The word is taboo.

We were circling around that, and as I met her eyes, I heard the part think a thought which did not find its way into words.

“That word was a curse included with the other stuff, during their ceremonies.”

I knew what she meant. We had already uncovered stuff done, within the catholic faith exercises, that had been unclean.

So I gently began speaking to my person, explaining that I wanted to ask…

And my person stopped me. She said she wasn’t sure what was going on but the part with resistance was now glaring at me, arms crossed, defiant. I knew the demand was of me to not go there.

Increasing internal breach is never my goal. I stopped. And internally calm was restored.

There is a timing to the revelations of history. The Lord knows all the angles. How much capacity there is, what the week holds, whether denial would be threatened, etc. I trust that.

So for my person, who was now curious about what I was going to say, I just offered the idea that it might be good to not blame self for the resistance, because a lot of times, resistance is based on historical trauma that is not resolved.

I’m so glad the Lord is with me in this work. People are so complex. I would not be able to navigate the intricacies without him.